Hermit Mckermit

One of my roommates left for home, and for the first time in weeks, I no longer have a TV to watch. It just hit me how much I'd turned into a hermit. With the TV gone, I'm finally finding that time really does tick by the second and not by 30 minutes. I'd set my life around Jeopardy and Wheel of Fortune. And now, the second evening I return home without a TV sitting right in front of me, I'm bored. Yes. After a long hard day at work, I just wanted to do nothing. So, I decided to have an evening life of chilling on the couch, munching on dinner, and just watching interesting characters entertaining me with their far-fetched stories. Now, I'm discovering WHY people should not be hermits. It's boring! And life becomes all gray and unexciting because you're not involved in reality! I'd been keeping people an arm's length away, saying no to their every invitation until they don't ask me out anymore. So now, I'm stuck with no plans, no fun crazy weekends, and just having a life of a sixty-year-old. Dang. I'm going to have to rebuild bridges. I need my life as a 22-year-old back, and I need to start now!

A dash of fun, adventure.... Arrh!

So I went to the Pirates and Princess party at the Magic Kingdom last Saturday. It was really cute how the little girls were all dolled up in princess outfits; Snow White, Belle, you name it, they're dressed it! And man I love pirates! I'm totally hung up on Jack Sparrow. I'm like in love with him or something... and he's not even a real person. Haha, there were these 3 guys who were decked out as Jack Sparrow and looked quite like the original. I talked to them, but too bad I didn't get a picture :(. I guess I got distracted... I was floating on cloud 9 or something, I mean c'mon, it was Jack Sparrow! One called himself Captain T. And he was a very cute Captain Sparrow-slash-T! *grin* Well, I did get a snapshot with the Disney Jack Sparrow though. He's a little chubbier than the real thing, but he's still a pretty good version of Jack Sparrow. And his drunk-yet-still-have-that-sharp-intelligent-look-in-his-eyes imitation of Sparrow was excellent! And here he is~

Another cool thing I did; I witnessed the launch of the space shuttle Endeavor last Wednesday!! Well, not exactly the launch.. but i saw it in the air. My roommates and I were watching it from our balcony. Here are pictures:


See it? Isn't it cool? It's like a fireball soaring towards heaven, and shooting across the bright blue sky. Here's one when it goes beyond the clouds, and all you can see is the trail of smoke it leaves behind...

Fun times! Here are more pictures from the Pirates and Princess party. Jessica had complimentary tickets from her boss and invited Neil and I.
Dinner... Munch crunch, chit chat, happy families buzzing about
Half of Goofy, and half of Jess. Goofy was pointing at Neil's foot cast


Jess and I in front of Cinderella's carriage; though you can barely see it.

Oh! There it is~

Posing in front of "It's a Small World After All"

Neil enjoying the tinkles of "It's a Small World"

A glimpse of "It's a Small World"

I'm a princess! Hahaa... It's a female restroom... yes..I do weird things like taking snapshots of restrooms... sometimes..

Hula hoop with CHIP 'N' DALE!!! It's a Dream come true! ;)

After a happy tra-la-a mini roller coaster ride

Uuuuu.. it's Capt. Hook and his 5'7" buddy Smee

Become a Princess...... so the sign tells us

Hahaha, I love this duck! Lookat his round tummy, it's so cute, he looks so adorable! And a little like a furry drum.. ;D

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hMmmm.........Gorgeous... isn't it?

35% Phlegmatic, 33% Choleric

I was browsing through some friends' blogs, and I found one interesting personality test a friend had taken. So, I decided to give it a try. Turns out, I'm 35% Phlegmatic, 33% Choleric, 18% Sanguine, and 15% Melancholy. Take a glance at my top two (Keep in mind that they're only 2% apart):

Strengths of a Phlegmatic
The Introvert | The Watcher | The Pessimist

The Phlegmatic's Emotions
Low-key personality
Easygoing and relaxed
Calm, cool and collected
Patient well balanced
Consistent life
Quiet but witty
Sympathetic and kind
Keeps emotions hidden
Happily reconciled to life
All-purpose person


Strengths of a Choleric
The Extrovert | The Doer | The Optimist

The Choleric's Emotions
Born leader
Dynamic and active
Compulsive need for change
Must correct wrongs
Strong-willed and decisive
Unemotional
Not easily discouraged
Independent and self sufficient
Exudes confidence
Can run anything


So.... Don't you think the two personalities totally cross out one another? On the one hand, "Consistent life", and on the other, "Compulsive need for change". And again, "Easygoing and relaxed", and the other "Dynamic and active". But the funny thing is that both pretty much hit the spot.


Weaknesses are pretty accurate too, though some are way off:

The Phlegmatic's Emotions
Unenthusiastic
Fearful and worried
Indecisive
Avoids responsibility
Quiet will of iron
Selfish
Too shy and reticent
Too compromising
Self-righteous

The Choleric's Emotions
Bossy
Impatient
Quick-tempered
Can't Relax
Too impetuous
Enjoys controversy and arguments
Won't give up when losing
Comes on too strong
Inflexible
Is not complimentary
Dislikes tears and emotions
Is unsympathetic


When you observe just one of the personalities on its own, you'll go like WOW. How nice to be so calm and collected all the time, never panicking over anything, and not even have the word 'tragedy' in your dictionary. Or, how nice to be a born leader, who takes everything on with no fear, and always thinking there's no such thing as failure, only opportunities and success. Or what about the weaknesses? One would say, Oh, I don't want change, I'll be happy to remain exactly where I am ten years from now or even forever. The other would only be happy if he's the king of the world and everyone bows at his every command. How freaky would either one be when completely by itself? (P/S:That's why we live in a community where people can get together, balance one another's weaknesses out and build one another's strengths up)

I think both of these personalities do describe me well. Especially with all the crossovers; they balance out and become even more accurate. And some when added together, really equal out to who I am.

It was fun taking this test. I learned not only a little more about me, and some of the things I need to work on (wake up call!); but it also made me think of the people around me. When you know what makes a person tick, you'll know how to approach and handle things when working with them. It's a pretty cool trick.

Golf!

Wow. I was really sleepy today at work. I drank 3 cups of coffee, and i was still pretty much... zoned out. It was weird. My boss is back from her vacation! Yesss! It's great to have her back. Oh, and last week we were told that there was going to be a huge reorganization that'll hugely impact our dept, so I was a little lost about what was going to happen to me as an intern in that dept. But i checked with Amy, my boss, and i'm still going to be with her. Phew. So i'm good.

Hey, i now have a golfing buddy! He's another intern from work, from the Sourcing dept. He's Andrew, a student at Wisconsin. He's really nice. And oh my, his golf swings are so great! In the forty-minute time we spent at the driving range, i got pretty decent. Though, out of the MANY times i swung, i missed about 1/3 of the time. hah. *blush*

Anywayz, the girl that i carpool to work with would start coming out with us the next time we go. I'm pretty pumped about playing for real. I'm going out on the driving range again to practice another time or two. I'm really serious about learning.... So, i'll probably go out tmr after work and practice what he taught me. And actually swing without missing. Anymore! Then we can go play for real. And oh, coolness of coolness, he's learning to play tennis too! So, hah! How awesome. A golfing and tennis buddy! Just when i thought i had to forgo both!

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Sigh... I was just thinking... and I realized that I'm a total freak. I keep to myself, I don't keep in touch with old friends, or even current friends. It's not that I don't hang out or whatever; I do, and I have fun with friends... I just don't work on furthering friendships to get them over to the close friend threshold. Most of my friendships are hovering in the area of superficiality and acquaintances. Sad, huh? People reach out, I put up a shield. Or I am friendly but with a huge forcefield keeping me in my little bubble. You know ppl like that? Ppl who make it so difficult for you to connect with? I AM one of them! Basically, I live in this shell with a NO ENTRY sign on it. WHy on earth do I do that?????

I think it all became worse when I left for Texas after high school. I moved around a lot since then... I just became even more independent than ever, and felt more comfortable moving to a new place rather than staying in one place. In fact, familiarity makes me a little uncomfortable, and makes me want to move again. That was how I felt when I was in Columbus... when I was surrounded by friends; always had people to meet weekly, to be vulnerable with, to catch up with and all that jazz. It was great for a while. Then I felt hemmed in. Or maybe I just got scared. And i wanted to run away to someplace new. I remember talking to God about it. It was in the Spring when I felt sooooo hemmed in and I wanted to just RUN. Well, He opened a door.

Now I'm in Orlando. All by myself, starting life anew; with a new lifestyle, new roommates, new friends, new colleagues, new workload. I love it! See... I'm a freak! Sigh... well, now I got to thinking... and maybe I'm not as happy as I think I am. How can a person keep to herself like the way I do and be happy doing it? It's just... weird. Not normal! My roommate Allie just left for the bar, but when she came out of our room, she said, "how can you stand to be so quiet?" I was sitting here in the living room, reading emails, reading my friend's blog... laughing occasionally, and just, well, enjoying keeping up with what's been going on in their lives. When she said that, i perked up my ears and heard what she heard. Nothing. Nada. Zilch. Absolute silence. Hah, and I didn't even notice it until she pointed it out. I don't see anything wrong with being quiet... it's just the way I am. But what I saw was all her efforts to build friendships, and then at my feeble ones...it's just... sad that I don't even put in the effort. Friends and roommates invite me all the time to go out and have a good time... i did like 5 times. I made one invitation myself, and it turned out to be a great time. But then I never took them up on or made any other offers. No... i just wanted to stay here at the apartment, chill out to a good novel, or watch Friends for hours, go off somewhere on my own, or work. It makes me feel comfortable, competent, and/or intelligent. And another thing... I basically had just one best friend before in my entire life back when I was like, eight... and a couple who were really close but I never called them my best friends... and everyone else that I bonded really well with were just close friends.

You know what?...I think I just found the problem...I think I'm afraid of intimacy...